Lessons of 2013

God has always been good to me. I alwas trust that everthing he lets me experience is a gift and a lesson, and as we come to the end of the year, let me share with you those lessons and realizations I had for the past 12 months. 

 Death is an inescapable, painful truth: My Grandmother died November 5, 2013. I got a text. The saddest text I have ever received. It is by far, the saddest news I got. My heart was still hopeful that she was still going to make it because she had survived so many hospital trips, I knew that this was something that was going to pass and we can all move on with our simple lives. But that day really changed me. Reality couldnt sink in because I believe in my heart it wasnt her time to go. But she's gone. I am forever changed and I will never ever forget her. There will never be a day that I will not think of her. Nanay is a blessing to me. If there's anything that she taught me, thats to give. Give until you have nothing and give even if you have nothing. My grandmother is very generous, she's kind and she's loved by all. She touched many lives, helped so many, and she will forever be remembered. Food will never taste the same without you. I can still hear your voice in my head. I hope you are in heaven beside him. Pray for me. I do not know how to get over this. Some beloved friends left the same month. Zidjay Ilejay and Christian Gabana. They will be missed. 

 I am totally okay being single: Again, its not a tragedy. Its a blessing. I get to do whatever I want to do with my life and I get to bring my daughter up the way I want her to be raised. I am drama-free and very happy. 

I have very few "friends": There are people who are always there, but it doesn't mean that they will be with you when you need them.

I still don't f*cking care: Need I say more? :) ( About BS and stuff) 

I love food and at the same time, I worry about getting a heart attack: I am complicated, what can I do? 

I love being busy: I am more focused when I do things. Even when they all come at the same time. I don't need motivation, that's for amateurs. 

I am a strong and independent woman: I take no bullshit and I go forward in life with all my might. I am the king of my own castle. 
  
I love my country: This year, my country suffered a lot of tragedies and I am just so proud of how my countrymen was able to gather courage and strength to move forward. I pray that things will all get better soon. 

Lastly, I realized that its important to really live life to the fullest, not just say it, live it! Wake up everyday and thank God for another wonderful opportunity to do things you like to do, Appreciate the little things in life, say hello to acquaintances who have been very good and accommodating to you for you never know when will be the last time you can chat, stay away from social media every once in a while and really live in the present. Life is good. Live it.